49 days.....

Here we are, out of the 50's and finally into the 40's.....49 days to be exact I have left here before I can be on a plane back to Tooele.  Like everyday I look forward to that time where I can step off the plane and see Michelle there waiting for me, the thought of that edges that day ever closer.

My days are chilled and the coaching is certainly speeding things up.  What speeds things up more is knowing I'll be skyping Michelle every night, certainly gives me something to look forward to each day.  Speaking to her last night, or afterwards it became evident that Michelle is now feeling a bit like I was last week.  I really do miss her but realisation sank in this has to be done, I really hope it sinks into Michelle quickly this week for the better, I hate seeing her feeling down especially when I can't comfort her properly.  This is where i feel most helpless.

Thing's are looking up and moving forward for both of us now, we are getting required things done in good time which is going to set up a great future for us both.  These next 49 days shall pass just as quickly as the last 8 days have without doubt.

Here's my problem now.  Yesterday I got notified that I, with another coach would be doing Mini Kickers....in pre school.  The same thing that at the tail end of July I was personally told I wasn't good enough to do in Salt Lake City.  So here begs the question.....what makes me suddenly good enough to coach that age 1600 miles away in Ohio?  It seriously does baffle me beyond belief and in all honesty angers me.  Not good enough where I was but suddenly when I'm on the plane, sent here I'm suddenly good enough again to do this job.  It angers me, or as polite as I can say it pisses me off.  I've been with this company for 4 years, vast experience and highly qualified, one of the senior coaches where I was.  I also found out I got replaced by a 1st year coach who in all honesty, had the personality of a tree.....good luck with the Mini's.  a facebook post I seen yesterday sank deep about the direction the company is going, it was along the lines of this 'A professional soccer company who now prioritises in coaching 2-3 year olds over high school teams'  unfortunately I have to agree with that, in my view thats exactly why the quality of coaches has dropped dramatically.  I'll be happy when I finally shut the door on my time with them.  Don't get me wrong I've had fun, it's allowed me to do things and most importantly allowed me to meet Michelle, for that I'm grateful, the way it's ending not so much.

Despite that I'm in much better spirits and a more positive outlook for the last 49 days here.  I love Michelle to bits and it's the driving force for seeing out my time here.  Soon.....soon this will be finished and the last blog I write for a good while will be the day after I'm back in Tooele with Michelle.  That day is not far now and soon it'll be within touching distance.

49 days.....