So I've now reached some what of a needed date today, today is 21 days or 3 weeks till I fly back. Why is the 21 days mark important? It has now put me beyond the half way stage of my time here until I leave. The weeks have flew by quickly but not quite quick enough for my liking. The last 21 days here I have no doubt will fly by in no time, much quicker than the previous days.
The last few weeks I've really been bored as I have nowhere to go and nothing much to do. I've started running again and I've seen my fitness improve slightly as I've ran more and more, also playing soccer has improved my fitness too, got my muscles working and my dynamic movement that comes with playing. I said in my previous blog (I think anyway) that I was told to socialize more with the host families as they had mentioned I'm very quiet. Heres the part that gets me. How can I socialize with families when they are never in and we have conflicting work schedules? Families i've stayed with work during the day and I work evenings, I really felt like an idiot having to point this out and state that while talking to my boss. Things like that work both ways but with this job, the coach is always the one who has to do all the work, has to please everyone but rarely do they ask the coach this simple question 'how was the family you stayed with?' I've never complained or moaned about host families in my time with this company. They don't know about my host experience in Gunnison, Utah 2011, sleeping on the floor in Taos, New Mexico 2010, my 2nd host this fall on my first day there all went off to the Baseball game leaving me on my own, my current experience this week in Ohio (just for the record I'm staying in the basement on a roll out bed, no room, the shower only runs boiling hot water and the basement smells of cigarettes as it's the smoking area) do I complain? Not at all, I shrug it off and move on.
Last Saturday night I was that bored, with some debate I decided to walk a mile to a bar to have a cold drink. It was only there I fully realized how alone and fed up I've been here, I also thought over my time here this year. Outwith work it's been the best year of my entire life thanks to Michelle, she injected me with happiness I've never had before and I love her so much. Work wise it's been a nightmare, I've fully realized how far the standard has dropped in this company, what takes priority and how easy it is to be praised simply by kissing someones ass. I'm not big headed, far from it but I've been with the company for 4 years, one of the most experienced coaches and hard working coaches but still I found myself working camps with 1 coach and like 8 kids while others who don't even coach as a profession get to run 8-10 coach camps. They really wonder why their numbers have dropped a lot in the past few years, look no further than who you employ and who's running the bigger camps down in numbers.
Enough of that for now. I have 21 days left to see out here and I'm really ready to finish now and get back home to Michelle where I belong, I miss her so much and I've certainly been away long enough. Skyping has been great but I hate seeing her down and I'm not there to comfort her like I should. So comon October, do my a favour and speed things up for me and push me towards the 29th, I'd be forever grateful.
21 days.......
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